Spix´s box of cookies

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Kinda back here
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spix_in_lj

Not sure why I can' t leave this place but it is what it is.
I am older, not more wise than before but a bit more at peace, if you don't take into account the little fact that I transferred college... ok, that's not right... I dropped one university, changed to another and started all over again in a new degree. Life is odd like that. But it is ok.
We will see what happens.


I don't know why I'm doing this
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spix_in_lj
Today isn't a good day. I should be crying but I can't so I pretend I'm fine with everything as it IS. It's not true.But I can't change anything nor run away because somebody must pick all the broken pieces. Fuck. Really, how do I fix THIS if I feel my life IS too broken too?

At least when my students are broken sometimes I can fix a bit of their lives. I have tools to help. There isn' t help for me. Fuck all. I'm going to cry in the bathroom and then keep going as always.

I want this
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spix_in_lj

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I WANT THIS. I LOVE HUGH JACKMAN.... BUT, TOM FUCKING HARDY'S WOLVERINE WOULD BE LIKE MICHAEL FASSBENDER'S MAGNETO:OMG.
I DON'T CARE TOM IS LIKE A CUTE GOLDEN RETRIVER. I TRUST HIM. HE MAKE ME LIKE BANE FOR GOD'S SAKE. I HATE BANE JUST AS MUCH AS I HATE PUNISHER. BORING AND UNIDIMENSIONAL CHARACTERS.
.... ok... I can calm down... Maybe... Maybe tomorrorw after I survive college. Midterms are from hell and they kill everything un tour life.
... So I am going to stop being over dramatic right now....

Via Cruxis
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spix_in_lj


There is a place I want to forget. I can't, because that place lives inside my mind. Everywhere I look I can see death... How long... How painful... I can see every death as if it was written on their tombs with details bright que bloody.

And... I am afraid because I don't feel sadness, I don't feel sick... everything is on its designated place and I am finally at peace.

And we will call it this land by Konoyo and Microsaur
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spix_in_lj
Inception/Firefly Fanfic.

I don´t even know how I found myself with this pairing again, but once I heard about the Arthur/Eames fandom I couldn´t unsee it in the movie the next time I saw it... and the next and the next. Damn it. The only "romance" I saw the first time was between Dom and Mal and that was fine.

That doesn´t mean I don´t like this pairing even if it´s based just on the 3 or 4 sarcastic dialogues they shared. Because I can see the potential there. Damn again.

I´m reading this between my study hours as a prize for a good day of burning my eyes reading really serious and academic themes... I´m in the half of the book and it´s awesome.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1281889

What? I can´t read anything without thinking if I could use it to write something....?!
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spix_in_lj
It seems the answers is NO.

Everything can be used and I like this quote from Josep Fontana, by the way the translation is mine, so do not trust itXD

" the change on attitude of the men coming back from a senseless and bloody war, men demanding their right to a better and more just society, as had been promised for years of fighting fraternity in the trenches (...) after a war nothing is the same as before. The men who have faced death return from the trenches with a changed mind which does not accept the old values, and it´s necessary to speak to them in a new language (.. .) "</ i>

This obviously doesn´t gave me any advantage for my exams but it was interesting to read anyway.

Fly wity me
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spix_in_lj

"why are you so angry?"
"I am not angry. This is my face!"
"I' m not talking about your face. You look angry because you' re on fire ... And that my friend is built with tree corpses... So, why are you angry?"
".... It is not anger..."
"Why are you sad then?"
"There is not stoping your questions without eating you...?"
"Not really. I' m a dove. We fly and are silly. I'm also curious and want to be your friend."
".... I am sad because I lost somebody I loved since birth. We lived in danger for years. We won the war... I thought we had more years... She died on tis day.... Fifty years ago. Her children are dying too... Soon there will be nobody remembering her but me..."
"Oh... I' sorry... Maybe you would like to talk about her and your lives with me? I'm a silly bird but I like to fly... Come to fly with me and tell me your memories. I'll remember with you until you find a new friend. She is not really dead if you talk about her. Come? The sky is perfect today."
"If I say no you will not give up?"
"No. I told you. I'm just a sily bird."
"Fine. We can fly... And I was not to burn the castle if you must know. She liked it. It was built by her archer."
"Tell me more while we fly!"
"She disliked him at first sight, but se disliked all men at that age..."


Beautiful Gigolas I would have loved to write myself....
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spix_in_lj

http://archiveofourown.org/works/2835713

But obviously the author did it better and first.


Dominion
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spix_in_lj

Magic is everywhere. It is inside everything even if you do not see it or even if it does not work for you. This place is full of magic, but it is special and unique because it does not need belief to be real.

And that is why we need to destroy it.


Are you there?
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spix_in_lj

Sometimes I dream I'm on the mountains looking to the sky and wishing I could reach the sky. I feel like you are always there, between the stars and so far away. I feel alone and I hate it. I scream to the sky. To you. Why are you there when I need you here? When I want you here with me. Then I wake up and I' m still alone on my bed. Sometimes I get up to look to the sky wishing you were there.
I try to remember you always come back from the stars...but how can I compite with them? How do I make myself not to be afraid of you leaving, when you did it before?


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